Wednesday, October 08, 2003: Mel

And suddenly i know how she feels. how someone can turn on you in a second, for no particular reason. It does hurt. And i see the end. It's pretty clear to me that there is no one who is capable of being a good friend. i try...... and obviously do not succeed. And not once has it been reciprocated. And it makes me cry. So remember this little one, You have one true friend, one who will stand by you no matter what, because i know what it's like, to be on the end, to be pushed out of bed by someone new, to cry angry tears that only make you angrier. I know what it's like to hurt like this. to hate yourself for letting it hurt. Stand up, be strong, and water under the bridge. You can do better. I can do better. We can let it go.