Thursday, August 16, 2007: J

I am trying to understand
The need you had to hurt me
The want that lay in you
To inflict the harm you did

I am trying to understand
The need you had to lie
The dishonesty kept you safe
From what you were feeling

I am trying to understand
How you could do it over and over
And not even realize the damage
That you inflicted on my heart

I am trying to understand
The choices that you made
Each day that drove you
Further away from me

I am trying to understand
Why a small piece of my heart
Will always be in the bottom
Of your pocket collecting lint